Darkness is not the absence of light
That would be too simple
Is more uncontrollable and sinister
Not a place but the void
I was there once
More than once
And although I could not see or hear
You were there
Waiting
Because the darkness is not dark to you
At least not always
You wept
Not because your friend was dead
But because soon you would be
And because we couldn't understand it
Or didn't want to
Or both
The coming darkness was too deep for us to grasp
But then so is the light
One had to come before the other
It was always that way with you
It still is
Tears fell from your eyes and then ours
Before every light in the world went out
and time itself wanted to die with you
I go back to that place sometimes
Or rather it comes back to me uninvited
The night was eternal
Until it wasn't
Bitter and unsweet
Somehow the bitter remained in the sweet and has never gone away
You told us it will be like that
Not with your words but how you lived
The Man of Sorrows acquainted with grief
That grief wasn't what we wanted to see
So we tried to look away and in so doing fulfilled your very essence
One from whom people hide their faces
But soon we couldn't hide from it anymore
Than we could stop the Sun from setting
Or rising
I remember you wishing there could be another way
And looking back I do too
I still don't know why it has to be this way
The bitter often mingled with the sweet
Maybe I never will
At least not this side of...
~ Mary Magdalene's monologue
written by Tyler Thompson for The Chosen series (season 4-episode 7)
